During the past few days on my many bus and plane trips throughout Peru, I had the opportunity to listen to a lot of music. One song in particular, Revelation by Third Day, has particularly made me think about what I am doing and where I am headed now.
“Revelation” by Third Day
My life has led me down the road that’s so uncertain
Now I am left alone and I am broken
Trying to find my way
Trying to find the faith that’s gone
This time I know that you are holding all the answers
I’m tired of losing hope and taking chances
On roads that never seem to be the ones that bring me home
Give me a revelation, show me what to do
‘Cause I’ve been trying to find my way, I haven’t got a clue
Tell me should I stay here or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I’ve got nothing without you, I’ve got nothing without you
My life has led me down this path that’s ever winding
Through every twist and turn, I’m always finding
That I am lost again, tell me when this road will ever end
I don’t know where I can turn
Tell me, when will I learn
Won’t you show me where I need to go
Let me follow your lead
I know that it’s the only way that I can get back home
Recently, this song has made me think about the idea of calling and being called to something – whether it be a person, place, profession, etc. How do we end up doing what we do, loving who we love, living where we are? How much of our lives do we try to control and not entrust into God’s hands? What would I be doing if I completely gave into His plan? Would my life be as I envision or want it to be?
Unfortunately these are difficult questions to ask, and for some of them, are even more difficult to put into action. Thankfully though, after doing something like spending a summer in Peru or meeting somebody like one of the many names I could mention here, it is apparent that they were not coincidence, but rather a calling or planned meeting in God’s eyes.
A part of me wonders if I have had difficulty in finding my “career” because I have been selfishly ignoring my calling and looking where I want to be, not where I am called by God to be. It takes a great leap of faith (and sometimes a strong push) to let go of everything and follow your calling.
Stay tuned for more stories and videos from Peru over the next couple days.
Ann Phillips says:
Wednesday, August 26, 2009 at 10:04 am
Your love for the boys and what you do in Peru is very evident on your site through your thoughtful words and photography. I wish I had your revelation when I was 23. I know my life would be much different and definitely much better. Love you! And, I’m so very proud of you.